This is my way to escape from reality and just be myself. Feel free to look around (I’d prefer it if you didn’t if you’re from my school though!) 

If you want to find out anything about me, just ask! I will be happy to answer. 

• 30 day about me challenge! 

Day one: Hello, my name is Charlotte. I’m almost 15 and I’m from Essex, in England. Please don’t stereotype me for that reason though- not all of us are walking wotsits!I’m not really very good about writing about myself but I’ll try my best. 

I’m pretty much the average teenager; facing the massive obstacle of myself. I’d do anything for a thigh gap and to be comfortable with the way I look and the way I feel about myself. I’m hoping that day will eventually come. 

I love Olly Murs and Danny O’Donoghue from the Script- the Script as a whole really. I don’t like ‘music’ which contains masses of rapping and I prefer music which has meaningful lyrics. 

Um… my family mean everything to me. I mean I know I don’t always show it but I honestly don’t know what I’d do without them. 

I’m mainly an optimistic person but when I’m unhappy, it can be quite bad. “Sunshine and Showers”. 

Hmm.. if there’s anything else you want to know, give me a message/ask.

Day two: My first love, anybody’s first love; the most exciting yet destroying experience you will feel as a teenager. I will begin by saying that I will not ever mention the name of the person. In case they discover this blog or in case somebody at school does. Not that I’m ever going to tell them about it.

Anyway, the first person that I actually had feelings for, the person who I thought about at night, the first person I cried myself to sleep over, the first person who made me feel broken. 

I don’t know… I was stupid enough to think that I could change him and stop him from being such a player. I hoped that for once he’d be able to settle for one girl. I hoped I was the one that could do this. I took the chance, I risked it and felt the consequences full blown. 

He made me feel special, he knew all of the right things to say.. he made me feel safe. We talked every night but then one night it stopped. A couple of weeks passed and I received a text asking for another girl’s number from him. I gave him it. Angrily. I knew this was it. 

And you know what makes the most bitter out of all? The way that I was ditched; the way I’d told him things I hadn’t to anybody else; I told him about how I made myself throw up after a binge on occasions; I told him about my mum getting cancer; I told him all the horrible feelings I felt. I trusted him.

But once trust has gone, you’re nowhere. It’s so difficult to build up again and it’s so difficult to believe anything what the person says. Losing trust for one person can make you lose it for everybody. And this is how he left me. Shattered.

Day 3: My parents are honestly the most amazing people ever. I’ll start with my dad. He’s always been around for me and he’s forgiving, kind, caring, funny and most importantly accepts me for who I am. I know I do things which upset him and probably make him really angry but he will never hold a grudge against me.

My mum is the most brave and lovely woman ever. Although she’s not always the most patient and forgiving person, and although we’ve had our ups and downs, we finally have a relationship based on trust and communication.

Since my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer, I’ve really realised how special she is and how I shouldn’t take her or anybody else for granted. She holds the whole family together and is unappreciated quite a lot. My mum does so much for us all and I’ve began to make sure that I tell her I love her everyday, give her a cuddle and say thank you to her for everything that she does do. 

I’ve inherited many things from my mum, including her wonky fingernails, and I know that I will always remember her whenever I look at my hands. She will beat cancer, I will help her through it.